My last try to make a new start!

It is day one again.  I have tried to restart and that has been less than successful, so here we are.  I am 51 years old, six feet tall, and 238 pounds with way too much belly fat.  I feel terrible and think that if I do not make a change for a better, healthier life that I will not have much more time on this great planet.  I am making a change for my family.  

Three years ago, I made the same change and I am back here again.  The biggest thing is that I have allowed my life to drift back to chaos.  I am miserable at work and I am back to eating and drinking too much.  So, last night, I tipped back some bourbon and we are back here again in the saddle of change.  

Two days ago, I began to feel that tightening beltline in my uniform.  Most of my clothes do not fit and I got rid of the big pants.  I am tired and I sweat all the time and I started to have some chest pain.  It was not my heart, but it should be a warning of what might happen.  If I do not make a change, I might as well count myself out.  

I have been putting myself at risk far too long.  In less than three years I have gained nearly all the weight back.  I have near zero self-confidence and each time I try to restart, I fail.   It is time to just do something so, here we go.  

The bottom line:  I need to get healthy or this will kill me.  No longer will I blame my family.  This attempt is my last chance.  It is all on me.  Period!