My last try to make a new start!
It is day one again. I have tried to restart and that has been less than successful, so here we are. I am 51 years old, six feet tall, and 238 pounds with way too much belly fat. I feel terrible and think that if I do not make a change for a better, healthier life that I will not have much more time on this great planet. I am making a change for my family.
Three years ago, I made the same change and I am back here again. The biggest thing is that I have allowed my life to drift back to chaos. I am miserable at work and I am back to eating and drinking too much. So, last night, I tipped back some bourbon and we are back here again in the saddle of change.
Two days ago, I began to feel that tightening beltline in my uniform. Most of my clothes do not fit and I got rid of the big pants. I am tired and I sweat all the time and I started to have some chest pain. It was not my heart, but it should be a warning of what might happen. If I do not make a change, I might as well count myself out.
I have been putting myself at risk far too long. In less than three years I have gained nearly all the weight back. I have near zero self-confidence and each time I try to restart, I fail. It is time to just do something so, here we go.
The bottom line: I need to get healthy or this will kill me. No longer will I blame my family. This attempt is my last chance. It is all on me. Period!